run away!

2007-03-30T00:14:00.000+14:00

Define it.

Slap with a kiss.

2007-03-25T23:08:00.000+14:00

Can i slap u hard and then kiss you passionately?

='(

2007-03-23T21:37:00.000+14:00

Just so you know, i wrote that when i just saw your blog. But yes~ i do still love you and miss you. and it sucks,that this happend. :(

You better not piss me off when we meet, you havent seen the worst of me yet. Nobody has, except for my sister. And yes~ it'll hurt more than u think. So, you better be nice, so only Allah could pay you. If you choose to piss me off, then you'll get it from me and Allah. Sooner or later, you'll be running back to us, and we'll say "we told you so". Good luck in everything you do, hope you dont die along the way. Cause you wont wanna stay in hell that long. love you, but we cant save you.

From you dearest Fucker,
-s-

2007-03-23T21:34:00.000+14:00

to y'all who wants to know out there, or should i say that this is especially for you fuckhead. im glad you know youre stupid. cause i really think you are. cut yourself? thats prolly like the saddest thing ever. or should i say, most typical. i mean KAMON, get a life. you got better things to do. or lemme guess, youre just gonna give up on life and start drinking so you can forget abt everythingand thats gonna make you happy? EH PALUI. why cant you just leave that behind especially when we're here, through thick OR thin. you're just as selfish as you can get. and dont you fuckin compare this situation with econs fair's.this one's even more plain stupid than mine last time. why cant you just ever get the point that we friggin care for you kan?!? is that so hard to understand. we care for you as much as you care for your fuckin boyfriend. maybe even more than that.but oh wait, i know what youre just gonna say. " if you care, then let me be ". if we just let you be, then we'd be the worse bestfriends youll ever meet, i fucking swear to god. we're not just gonna let people criticize on you on how bad you actually are.corrupted mind, horny biatch, retarded daughter. is that what you want? yes? then youre pathetic. haha, you hear me? PATHETIC. sure ima let you be from now on. its not my fuckin business anymore anyway right? i mean, i dont wanna be your friend.plus ive got tons out there, unlike you. selfish dimwitted fuckface. dont come running back to us when you need anything. especially calling me in the middle of the night crying and asking for help? don't. youve got your own back.

15/3/07

2007-03-19T06:50:00.000+14:00

Wasnt it so stupid to have that cleaning campaign? We did normal duty anyway~ hahahaha! but the fun part was obviously, End of Assesment Test, we got to wear our old house T-shirts, we got to be vain and yes~ so called holiday was on! hahahaha! =D more pictures in multiply btw.... =) much love~

=\

2007-02-18T19:52:00.000+14:00

Nadj asked me to blog...since she cant for some reason her computer wont let her....heh~ im speechless simply because even with all my laughs and smiles deep inside something is still bugging me hard...im not Emo, its simply my life...everything aint what it seems.... and that sucks.... =\ its just that sometimes dont you wish you dont know the truth,cause when you do...things jus get more complicated...well~ yes~ sometimes i wish i didnt know some facts of life....i dont like reality...as the song goes "I wish there was a fairytale that turned into my life"...yeah~ i wish~

2007-02-12T03:29:00.000+14:00

A pictures says a thousand words. So, when there a million pictures? how can we count?hahahaha! What im trying to say is....There loads more pictures, if your wondering...hehe! =D

2007-01-30T09:22:00.000+14:00

its 3am and no, i cant sleep yet. my bed time's all tangled up and i have to fix it as soon as possible, cause school is in 2 gay days. i do miss some part of school. but now that ive thought over all the things i have to start doing again. man i dont think itd be all fun. getting up in the boring early morning. fixing my tudung which will make me look really dark eventually. studying : less going out. back to reality. and this year, should be one of our most serious and hardworking year. hahaha okay enough. had lunch at swensens today. sadah's treat sebabnya today's her 16th birthday. yes, happy birthday, sadut. olevel results are coming out soon too. so goodluck to all of you guys who's nervously waiting :p including you, sadut. haha.

to the duts: i like the way you walk, mhmm. i like the way you say, mhmm. i like the way you move, now we can bounce to the mood, keep the dance floor saying, MHMM. that song brings back alot of memories. ku suka!

note to you bida people:
SYU'S COMING BAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAACK, LATER!

2007-01-28T07:49:00.000+14:00

this is what the world needs :)
agreed by: nadj and afif.

2007-01-25T11:01:00.000+14:00

HAHAHAHAHA :P

its love ... :D

Van Persi.

2007-01-23T13:08:00.000+14:00

I was watching Arsenal play yesterday....Honestly, im not a big fan of Arsenal, nor am i of any...heh! i still go for *SIRENS*...hehehe! =D but damnn~ Do you know Ven Persi? I dont know if you thikn as i do, but dammmmnnnn~ he's hot.....ahhahaha! and he's DUTCH....There's also this rumour that he's Islam, but nobody really knows....heh~ but he's married..... =\ he's like only 23 ya know.....i just have to let this out.....hehehehhe! =B but at the same time, i still remember the football craze we had last year......Ofcourse i still remember the ones i admire....ahahha! like Kaka, Cannavaro and Tim Cahill....hehehhe! =D

And yes Fina, i suppose my theori is correct. Europeans are hotter....hehehe! =D

2007-01-21T19:28:00.000+14:00

Happy Birthday Nini Ibnu.

they all look the same, dont they. haha notice the only people who takes turn to take the photos? (: note to every so called cowboy and red indians, YES, i was at 19th hole AGAIN!

hahaha laters

remeber this?

2007-01-20T12:06:00.000+14:00

Remeber this? =D We rawk~ <3

-Syu <3

2006

2007-01-20T11:25:00.000+14:00

SELAMAT TAHUN BARU HIJRAH 1428 =D

and i dont know why i cant have colours and change font arounde here any more! heh~

hey hey~ it's been quite some time i've actually jus written anything and im bored here. so yeah~ There's nothing to do and if there is, im sure even you guys wouldnt want to do it. I miss Brunei, all my friends, school and simply everything. Well~ i was just thinking about eveything that happened in the past and i tought i should write it since i have nothing to do anyway...heh~

early of 2006, just got into f.4CS and i remember the 1st thing we were asked to do was carry the tables from the hall for us, since there wasnt enough tables and chairs. *sigh* and i was so happy cause a particular person sat beside me...hehehe! =x

nadj amd i also joined a football team *SIRENS* (i miss those days alot~) i remeber we usualy had tournaments in small groups. One match i remebered, was when we were playing and nadj was in my team. One of our team member kicked the so high and far which went to nadjs end and she was the only one there. And guess what she did??? She just looked at the ball passing by up of her! haahahhaahhaha! nadjjj~ that was so fun...u sure we cant play football like jus for fun....like i always did at ur house if one of our practices would get cancelled? hehehe! =D

at the same time i was in a dancing group, organizes by "D Music Studio". I met Dylis, Ollie, Sam K., Sam F., Manny and Kim. We had practices almost everyday. It was freaking tiring but damn fun. We performed at Rizqun Hotel and now...damn~ i miss that nite and you guys~ =\ that includes Zaty, Min, Syuk, Karen, Afiq, Qays, Our teachers, *Ms.Ong and loads loads more. 27/2 <3

Then there was the BDAC leaflet thing. I didnt get to get partnered up wif any of u guys but the break time we hung out and that was fuuuuunn. Like come on would we ever be caught dead eating lunch on grass? but that day no matter what happened, it was a blast. heh~ i miss that day. And i remember Nadj, Umi and I followed teh Orientation....POP as they called it....that was freaking fun huh? i wanna do that again this year....I want to laugh out loud to all the crazy things we do and also cry for the things we dont really ting about but we should, heh~ Talk about back to reality , huh?

well~ school was obviously crazy. like litterally crazy. HAHAHAHA! now i even miss it. not the study part ofcourse.... =B then we had Elle's party....wohhoo~ we organized it....hehehe! =D few days afta that we had Talentime...2nd place~ *sigh* but nevermind that, cause zy was great at replacing my place for the dance...i told u can do it zy... =) and obviosly thanks to alllllll my friends for the support since i had to do three shows witout any rest and totally nervous the whole way. Eventho lastly i sucked....*sigh* heh~ thennn "Prinece Azim Party"...what a night that was rigth? heh~ LOOADDS of ups and downs, huh? but we had our memories...heh~

And my 2006 in Brunei ended wif me running towards Nadj and Umi for our goodbyes~ eventho its just almost 2 months, still i couldnt help feeling my eyes watered when i got into the check in door and could see anyone from outside again. Damn~ and i drawed a plane while waiting for us to get called.

Well~ llooooooooonnnngggg story short, I miss the old days....like so damn much. And eventho as i tot 2006 was like hell but when i think of the good parts of it, it was a hell of a year. Can this year be the same? Cause its surely not a good start... =\ i miss u guys, caus ei have excatly no friends here...*sigh* heh~ =B

-Syu<3

2007-01-18T04:24:00.000+14:00

HAHAHAHAHAHA

2007-01-17T00:29:00.000+14:00

Look what i found :D

.......

okay, so here i am again. writing cause im really jobless. everyone seems to be really busy and i cant think of anything to do to keep myself busy. i cant seem to find no ride to get aleast out of the house, so i guess its homework time. even tho i just got back from finishing my math with benny and azy. story of the day is, benny's rich. hahahaha had aleast more than 4oo in my pocket. threatened benny, gave him conditions and dared him to do stuff just so he could get his money back. but yeah, nothing interesting happened [boo benny] had to give it back by the end of the day anyway. CAUSE .. note to benny: im not that mean. and getting me a recharge card is the least you could do right. thanks benny :p

yes this post is actually for you. and cause im running out of food. so this might get my mind off it :D thas all for now, cheers chipsmores.

krispy kreme

2007-01-14T04:17:00.000+14:00

I you have totally nothing to do and bored to death. Check out this URL http://leavetheworldbehind.multiply.com/photos/album/30

i know your curious..... =B

but be aware to eat Breakfast, Lunch or Dinner first before watching it...hehehe! =D

2007-01-13T03:06:00.000+14:00

i miss school. well, not school. just some friends id go crazy with in the early morning.
getting scolded for not doing sm pisa shit, aka, fuggin homework :D or maybe, for being too talkative in class. i actually also miss sitting next to azy, infront of nad and so near to syu. i miss going to recess and getting candy from anyone i bump into. i miss getting compliments on how neat my work [INCLUDING HANDWRITING] can be. HAHA. i even miss going to the most disgusting toilet youll ever enter (: there's one thing i miss the most right here. the library.
its the time when people dont make use of the chair, but the floor instead. its when others pretend to just grab some books to read, when they actually want to use it as a cover to the things they play; thats mobile phones to you. its when you make fun of the lame books they have there and share it with everyone around you.

i dont know if im just too bored with my holidays or i just really missed school. when benny and azy helped me with math just now, i was actually pretty eager. but maybe its cause i havent been writing for at least two months now or i havent touched no books to read. or even make an effort to do the research on my art homework. but when school reopens, bet you a million ill start complaining how it actually sucks to be in school again :p so i guess i better make use of my less than a month holidays now.

p.s. i finally got to watch the notebook last night and goodness sake, they fall inlove WAY too much :D yet it didnt fail to make me cry. hahaha cheers little devils.

2007-01-12T06:05:00.000+14:00

http://bruneirestaurantreview.blogspot.com/2007/01/nadj-restaurant.html

just something thought you people might wanna go and take a look at. go on, check it out :D
no joke, its the coolest.

2007-01-10T09:18:00.000+14:00

kite sayang sangat kat die
awak tau tak, perasaan die?
bile kite jumpe org tu
lepas tu kita terus tau
yg dialah, teman hidup kite ...

kamu tau tak?

2007-01-09T14:22:00.000+14:00

Trip to Holland and Germany was great......Thank you Opaa and Omaa....You guys are the best...for once i was really having fun this holiday....altho you guys would like to be unknown to the world at the moment....heheheh! =D my secret identity Opaa and Omaa's....eheheh~you guys are KOOOOOOO....but since im back in UK now and stuck wif my parents again wifout u guys distracting them....life gets dull again.... =\ wish u guys were here....

Much love....Hope to see you guys again....

2007-01-08T02:48:00.000+14:00

not to everyone: haji afif abd rahman's back.
note to haji afif abd rahman: thank you for the swatch :p glad to have you back.

note to mummy and pa:
NOKIA 7390. i want this old phone so bad! ):

2007-01-05T04:42:00.000+14:00

JUST two more days til haji afif abd rahman comes back. we need you as soon as possible, juggay.

p.s. :) life's ugly.

2007-01-02T08:34:00.000+14:00

my crazy little fellas. thats haziq, hafiz, isa and fifah to you (:

hi. how was your new year eve? mine was absolutely bizzare, if you ask me. the whole thing started out really, really boring. okay maybe not that boring, but it was quite dull id say. but then again, things didnt go so bad especially when ziq starts making up lame yet so frikin faggin funny
jokes. we even had a totally proper dinner, which was like what isa would say, ''exquisitely delicious''. and yes it was, indeed. oh and we didnt have jj, emah and umi for that night, unfortunately. and i can even include sa's name but just for the countdown part. he left for this party which we were suppose to go to earlier. him alone, yes. and as for the four of us, we left for empire's fireworks.

but..

stupid roadblocks got us celebrating the countdown in the car. yes, you got that right. but then again, like what i said earlier, it wasnt bad at all. its who we're with anyway right ski ;p i bet even kumar had fun. hahaha. and i must say, the best part was when ziq made a phone call to the radio. shouldve heard what he said, was brill wasnt it guys? haha i guess thats abt it.
we had dim sum after that? yeah oright thas it for now. cheers y'all.

note to everyone: haji afif abd rahman is coming back real soon. THEE.

2006-12-31T21:39:00.000+14:00

Selamat Hari Raya Aidiladha, everyone! :)

and

have a Happy New Year.

2006-12-30T22:31:00.000+14:00

Just some stuff i stole from fah's blog :D hahaha, hi.

Sad.
001. When`s the last time you cried?: been quite awhile.
002. Why did you cry?: haha.
003. What makes you sad?: silly stuff.
004. Have you lost a loved one this year?: yes, actually.
005. Which pet of your`s was the last to die?: i dont have a pet.
006. What are some of your regrets?: falling inlove.
007. What was the last bad news you recieved?: there might not be seats on the 12th.
008. What was the last thing to make you upset?: aah. something, something.
009. Ever had suicidal thoughts?: neop.
010. Ever tried killing yourself?: nope, not that stupid.
011. Ever cut yourself?: lame.
012. Have you been/are you depressed?: yes and no, just a wee bit.
013. What songs make you sad?: damn alot :D

Happy.
014. What made you laugh the most today?: nenek thinks im crazy.
015. Who makes you happy?: my goodfriends.
016. What songs make you happy?: island in the sun. my only wish this year. im yours.
017. What makes you happy?: food and friends.
018. Are you a pretty happy person?: no, not at all. haha
019: What was the best day of your life?: mmm, cant think.
020. What are you looking forward too?: to get over my olevels and get out of brunei for holidays.
021. Was your first kiss a happy one?: snort.

Inlove.
022. Are you inlove?: ya think?
023. Are you taken or single?: whazzap.
024. If taken, how long has it been?: nada bah.
025. If you`re single, do you like anybody?: * grin *
026. Who was your first love?: haha this part's boring.
027. If you`re taken, when did you start dating?: ya allah, nada.
028. What color eyes does your crush/significant other have?: PKHAKAKAKA entah tapinya lawa matanya. sumpah! hahaha.
029. How long was your longest relationship?: HAHAHA.
030. How many boy/girlfriends have you had?: entah, 3, 4, 5, 6
031. Ever thought of giving up on love all together?: yes.
032. Ever write a love song or poem?: HAD loads of em.

Jealousy/Envy.
033. Are you jealous of anyone?: yes, a guy :)
034. What celebrity do you wish you looked like?: JESSICA ALBA!
035. Is anyone jealous of you?: dunno, who cares.
036. Do you hate some people just because you`re jealous of them?: heck neop.
037. What`s your favorite song about jealousy?: pfft.

Anger.
038. What makes you angry?: everything. including you, ah? :)
039. What do you do when you`re angry?: swear.
040. Ever put a hole in a wall because you were mad?: hahaha inda.
041. Ever broken glass?: nope
042. What do you do to cool off when you`re angry?: find food, listen to my ipod and tell you people to fuck off.
043. Ever hurt someone because you were so angry?: hurt as in hurt hurt? haha
044. Do you randomly snap when you`re angry?: say what.
045. Do you have a bad temper?: YES.
046. Do you curse when angry?: all the time.

Worry.
047. Are you worried about anything right now?: yes, abt alot of stuff.
048. Do you worry about every little thing?: YES, oh my god, yes. haha
049. What should you be doing right now?: shower.
050. Are your grades in school good?: no, i dont think so.
051. Is anyone you know in the hospital right now?: yes i think. umi's nenek :D
052. Are you worrying about anyone`s health at the moment?: my sisters.

Give me something, worth waking up to.

2006-12-29T05:43:00.000+14:00

You know that Nelly Furtado song "all good things come to an end"? yeaa...what will become of me? reality sucks...but i cant be in my fantasies..and that sucks...i miss ya guys, and i cant wait to come back home...its so fcuked up here especially if u add it with this so called family.... *sigh*

2006-12-28T10:15:00.000+14:00

You were almost sixteen when I came into the world.
Mom and Dad had you first then 3 more boys I'm the baby girl.
I sure have a lot to look up to in you, you're really smart and funny with a big heart too.
After one year of college you knew what you had to do.
It's just like you wanting to help with the war.
So you joined the army when I was only 4.
This time of year we talk of big plans but you're over seas in some distant land.
You can't be here for Christmas, I don't understand.
Chorus:
When are you coming home, Shaun?
When are you coming home?!
We lit up the house like we always do but it doesn't seem bright 'cause we can't have you.
In my prayers I ask God to keep you safe.
And I'm trying to be really brave.
Tell me that the fighting's through.
Come home!
I really miss you.

It's hard to enjoy the holidays without you.
But we're so proud of you and all the red white and blue.
Remember that Jesus is your best friend,
And someday our families will be together again.
Wow! You know we'll have a great big party then.

Chorus

I want to show you how tall I've grown and introduce you to my new friends at school.
Maybe we could go and get some ice cream together but I really don't care what we do.

yes, fiz found it, not me. im just really touched. and shes bloody cute too! haha.

2006-12-27T02:07:00.000+14:00

we love you, adam!

2006-12-25T22:02:00.000+14:00

2006-12-24T21:28:00.000+14:00

Especially for Umi Khairiyah. Krispy Kreme Donuts :D

i did the pleasure of eating the last two, mi.

YUM! :D

HAHHAH.

crap, its really good.

2006-12-24T07:36:00.000+14:00

Ghastly :p but i miss these days.

HAHAHA BDAC.

aah those days. muscle days. HAHA

chinese new years :)

TALENTIME SHT.

ina&inie's birthday!

waterballoon days :(

HAHAHAHAHAHHA AZY!

HAHA

i miss THIS :( cigu midah.

Still in-denial.

2006-12-23T04:03:00.000+14:00

I cant really chat much but all i wanna say is "I miss ya'll so much..." and for updates of pictures go to www.leavetheworldbehind.multiply.com, have fun.... =) ILOVEANDMISSYOUALL~ =D

IMY.

2006-12-23T00:38:00.000+14:00

nadj says;

3 days to christmas.
4 days to zaim's birthday.
9 days to new years.
11 days til you come back.

takara for dinner, baby! cheers :)

2006-12-17T07:36:00.000+14:00

By tomorrow, i will no longer stand next to this little midget who was never scared to try new good things. no more of taking silly pictures on christmas day. no more of anyone stealing your phone off your pocket to just take pictures of itself. no more stories abt guys always going to her :p no more old times. HAHAH im talking like as if syu's leaving forever. well what im tryna say here actually is, ill miss you syu :D but im sure syu'll have fun in UK, yeah syu? <3

9 days to christmas!

sigh

2006-12-16T04:35:00.000+14:00

Damnn~ im sooo fustrated....not only because im flying....but simply just everything about life.... *gosh*

----BITE ME----

2006-12-15T06:31:00.000+14:00

Happy Birthday Zartay Bahrin (:

2006-12-13T06:49:00.000+14:00

right now i must say, things are really ugly. each of us tryna help each other so things can work out? and sometimes you need another person to just always be there for you? to talk abt stuff and to joke around with? some left for holidays. seriously i need to get out of this country. the things i do everyday, im just getting sick of it. im bored of my holidays i just wanna join other people celebrate christmas. getting presents sounds pretty good to me. haha or maybe its just the jingle bells and decorated trees i see during xmas that actually excites me to join them celebrate. syu would actually trade places with me if we can, no syu? she'll stay and ill go. and yes, there goes another one of my friends. seriously you guys, my holiday's getting even more dull each and everyday. s'all crap, man. haha other than that, i think ive also been a pretty cruel friend. harsh words to good friends? sigh. and sorry's not gona make things better. but for now, lemme just figure things out properly okay you guys? now its. ''tryna help a friend who'd want burger king to bring up a smile. or months-of-waiting and i-dont-know-how to tell situations'' time. itll all work out, believe me.

i miss having viv and gys around :( but til then, cheers!

2006-12-12T08:30:00.000+14:00

25: All I Want For Christmas is You.

Cry with me.

2006-12-12T08:07:00.000+14:00

sentimental moments has got me gone crazy, crying alone....

2006-12-03T20:13:00.000+14:00

jughead. the all time joker. my good friend, my brother :D

2006-11-29T17:57:00.000+14:00

for my friends.

2006-11-27T05:49:00.000+14:00

i cant get it off my mind. yesterday was just, one hell of a day? but the thing is, i dont know. if im to be happy abt that one time or not. as tired as i can get, its still in my mind. what was i thinking. why didnt i do it and smhow it feels so impossible to share it with anyone. or maybe, thers just no one. so i screwed up when i was singing. wasnt how it was spose to be. it wouldve been better if i wasnt shaking. i let them down. but it couldnt get any worse than that one time where it was only us. there was five at first. but as the day grew brighter, they left one by one and sooner, it was just us. i was that stupid to let go of my chances. why did i let go? we were, quiet. the view was pretty. so was he. but what in the world did i have in mind! the more hes closer to me, the more i try to let go of my chances. but when he leaves, i want them back. i want him back. something's wrong and its never gona be fixed if i dont start talking. i was THAT stupid. now he'd never know.

2006-11-27T02:01:00.000+14:00

yes, we sang.

meet flounder.

wajeeh.

dek and iz.

har.

HOWDEY!

don't ask. haha

i am exhausted.

2006-11-22T21:27:00.000+14:00

ski, abdul, moose, parey and abski.

mutnai.

:D

HAHAHA tsk.

afif, as always.

holy moley.

phewiiit. hahaha

dek and har.

meet badulski.

ziqski, bakiski.

Im really glad i feel so much better now. i mean, yesterday was absolutely dull. it was hell. the only thing i did was sleep. felt so weak, i could just pass out anytime. i couldnt even walk properly and i kept on throwing up. i was sick. so was ski. but thank god, we're feeling alot better today. excpet now my skin's peeling off, thanks to the sunburnt that occured on the 19th. sigh, what a life. im gona look hideous on the 25th. i best go mandi now, its 4pm and i stink.

2006-11-22T21:18:00.000+14:00

Happy Birthday Afifah Azmi :D

2006-11-16T02:39:00.000+14:00

Maybe things are really all going the wrong way. Theyre going through the wrong path, but i know im not. Whatever i hear or see seems to just be wrong. Things i think about nearly every second. Stuff going on and what's gona happen, it just doesnt seem so right. I think ive only got one question and that'd obviously be, ''what is happening to the world?''I know even that one person who used to help me on these matters wouldnt be able to give me an answer cause he's one of the cause why that question even popped in my mind.

Oh lord, im freezing. It's raining out there and abg just left for KL. My friends go to school, i stay at home. Life gets even worse day by day. I can't understand things easily and i don't know why i can't help myself nowadays. I don't want to think im weak, cause im not. I wish i can predict the future. I just dont know what you think. But its always telling me to forget you or ill be the fool i used to be again. Okay, ill be off to dinner now.

Cheers Little Caspers.

2006-11-09T07:51:00.000+14:00

I'm leaving it all behind.

Love,
NADJ.

Life sucks.

2006-11-03T07:51:00.000+14:00

Finally...im back online...but i havnt got any pictures....so~ kinda brougth me motivation of writting wayyy down because of that....raya's boring as usual and suckier more than ever *sigh*......i hate got a job, a date, a car (or ride) nor a camera.....*sigh* typical typical holidays routine 'slaved' around all nite n day(times when u LOVE school)......miss my friends, mycamera, myfreedom, my life....hope yours better than mine.... =)
Cant wair for the school trips though....you knoooowww how much i love them...hehe! yeppie~

p.s--->damn~ i wish i had pictures.....*sigghh*

------------------------------------give something worth living for.

2006-10-30T20:19:00.000+14:00

ah hello. hows everything been. i know i know, my blogs just so empty and my layouts are getting so old. but sometimes im js too tired now that i have another blog :p
raya's been balanced to me. i had my times with both family and friends and the cash ive been getting.. well, fair enough. haha :D now most of my friends have already started going to school and doing their exams and all, so im just gona think of what i should do for 3 months now. something useful i mean. altho i might need my friends with me when it comes to sthin new. i did plan of something, but now that things are screwed [yes including me, myself] i guess im gona have to cancel it. or maybe.. work on it alone. OH ive been checking out the upcoming ipods too. oh man, they are the ruggedest. the micro, baton and baby. i want them
:(

will come back soon when ive things to talk about. right now i must get ready and accompany me aunt out on this rainy day. the clouds gray and i feel so ugly
:( cheers you guys.

THIRD DAY.

2006-10-27T18:35:00.000+14:00

HAHAHA entah.

tsk. si haziq~

tweenies.

HAHA hi mah :D

si mers mau mau.

phoebe, joey!

mi & jj.
half of mi. fah, mers.

without you.

2006-10-18T19:54:00.000+14:00

ALOHA. howsit doin! things are pretty fine if you ask me and and this is cool, this is cool, exam will finish tmoro and you have no idea how glad we are. haha its been two weeks and we're really sick of the books. anyways now its gona be over, ive got tons of things to do. well, we planned it earlier and i hope it goes as well as planned :D since rayas coming, yes, selamat hari raya to all of you. the others are planning on spending the day pampering ourselves tmoro. hahahaha dont think ill be doing anything. i dont mind going with them tho. theres not much to do at home anyway. honestly im not so excited of raya, maybe cs abg n kaka's not gona be here, and im gona be.. how bout, lonely? dont worry yah, yes, im glad i have you. but really, i dont even know what ill be wearing for the first day. sthin purple, i think? wish me luck fe tmoros math one, we'll be flunkin together :p okay bye.

2006-10-15T04:33:00.000+14:00

im sorry. im really sorry. i dont know how to say everything. thers just alot and you will never understand. im speechless. i.. in my life, its the other way around, m. you had a new life. i just thought, i needed to stay out of it, m. i seriously did not forget you, i did not. not you or wan, but honestly, i was upset. sometimes seeing you around and not talking like old times make me feel really down. i mean it, m.when i see you in school with your friends, i just feel like im in another world where you dont include me. i dont know if i should continue crying and sobbing all the way, but i know nothing will do any good now. why didnt i myself tried making things like old times eh? why didn't i. and if you ask me, m, ive never. never ever have forgotten abt our past. you made my childhood. dont you remember, i used to go to your place everyday, m. everyday and this might sound silly, but i didnt know how to clean myself after i poo? yes poo. how can i forget that, m? we were really young. you've been my only best friend since small who ive never stabbed in the back. so i might sound like im talking shit, but im not, m. i do care for you if thats not what you think. you are still in me. i thought I wasnt in YOU, m. i just dont know what to say anymore. thers tons going in my mind, im so confused, i feel really stupid. it doesnt matter how high or low in standards my friends are. you'll be one of the best. why? you did make my childhood, m. how cn i ever let the memories just fade away? bcause of other friends, m? no, m. you're part of me, i just dont know how to make everything like old times again. i just don't and im sorry.

it doesnt matter if im telling the world abt my life now. this post is worth for you, moomzy.
wan, im sorry.

speechless - the veronicas

2006-10-14T07:06:00.000+14:00

sigh, its 12.35 a.m. now. and yes, im back. i cant help it. obviously :p i just finished watching a cinderella story. man, that totally made me think, why cant everything in life just go as smooth like in the movies? a perfect ending. i know syu would agree with me on this. big time! anyways. exams been pretty kresi if you ask me. so far, im most worried of my cs and math paper. it was unbelivable. in a bad way ocors. everyone seemed totally hopeless, we just laid our hands off the papers and started to day dream. some slept, others just gave up. everyone started swearing after the teacher got our papers off the desk. haha yeap it was that hard. we're having CS1 and Ugama1 tmoro. les hope itd be fine. 5 more days, excluding sunday :D and we'd be totally free. we have extra 15 minutes for school next year tho. which means we'll end school by 1245. doesnt matter, 3 months hols for us is just so cool for now :D cheers jigaboo.

N39 - exams kresi.

2006-10-13T05:34:00.000+14:00

for all the shit you care.

2006-10-02T03:57:00.000+14:00

its 3.18PM and i havent mandi. i will after i get everything done. and this should seriously be my last time to blog. seriously, exams in one week and i must. but before that. you guys, thank you so much. i mean it real bad. thanks alot! i had fun, really. thanks, you guys. and you people came with presents too, f gods sake )o: to mum&dad too. thanks so very much. p.s. syu and dek, no worries guys. theres always next time yeah. ill still love you guys anyway :D

so anyways. mers n umi sleptover last night and ive got only one thing to say to umi. im sincerely sorry. for leaving you to sleep alone in my room and on the floor. sorry mi we lav you :D im gona make it te you and for that, im gona name the turtles jojo and bobo like how you wanted it to be! cheers to ya'll, ill come back soon.

''what a night.. so far.. ''

we are famileh.

HAHA kamon you gota lafadat :D

meet sheega n the new friend, tinker.

2006-10-01T23:58:00.000+14:00

THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING.

2006-09-30T05:11:00.000+14:00

okay so i thought the next time i'd be blogging was spose to be after the 19th, but seriously i can't help it and im not doing anything at the moment. so its another hour left. exactly just another hour and i hope it goes real well tmoro. and syu please don't cry. smile as a birthday present for me okai :P no seriously, there's always a next year. and ill be 16 then. wiggle eyebrows. haha okay syu. don't cry you know i'd understand. hugs.

til then. cheers to ya'll.

Cried uncontrollably.

2006-09-30T02:21:00.000+14:00

Im sorry, i wasnt brave enough to tell you.....i just dont dare to hear you cry.....as much as i did when i heard of the news......i tried to reason and reason them....but all i got was "just go there after sending her"......its not that i dont want to send my sister......i do, and yes~ i admit its sad she's goin itself made me cry but to think that i wouldnt be crying not only my heart would break....the worst was to break someones heart......i cried non-stop and i was in the worst of mood for the whole freaking day.....i wonder what else ould make it worst....then i saw your 'personal message' i started crying and panicked....my other sis insisntd on her calling you and break the news.......i was crying in the background listening to your conversation.....i couldnt stand it......and im so so so sorry....i cant do anything.....unless some miracle happens......because my parents allowed me thats one thing for sure.....but it just had to clash.....how unfair could my life be? but one thing for sure, please dont be sad.....honestly, i know you would have a great time.....one thing for sure, i know it'll be better then mine.....thats one thing for sure.....and you see how people were so eager for it.....people werent for mine.....people even greeted three weeks before....people even made countdowns......people even asked about it......you see how ur loved, by everyone? you know how i was sad before my so called big day.....i was even sad on the day and the days after......so yeah~ you should be happy......cz i noe u'll hav a better one than me.....everyone did...... and im really really sorry i couldnt come that early.....unless its 8pm.....but no matter what happens.....you know it'll be perfect no matter what....its you for goodness sakes..... =B

HAPPY BUTT'DAY NADJ.......You'll have a great one....I know.....

Could i actually still feel love?

2006-09-28T01:39:00.000+14:00

sometimes i wish, that i was an angel,

a fallen angel, who visits your dreams,

and in those dreams, i'd blow you a message,

that says 'you really want me'.

sometimes i wish that i was a wrestler,

a mexican wrestler, in a red vinyl mask,

and i might grab you and body slam you,

and maybe cause, physical harm,

but when we would land, i might take pity on you,

i could crack all your ribs, but i cant break your heart.

You will never love me,

and this i cant forgive,

that you will never love me,

as long as i will live.

sometimes i wish that i was a beauty,

a beautiful girl, the popular one,

and i'd turn your head and your friends would love me,

and i could afford to play hard to get,

we'd go to parties and you'd show me off,

then i'd go out with your best friend.

you will never love me,

and this i cant forgive,

and it will always bug me,

as long as i will live,

you will never love me,

why should i even care,

it's not that your so special,

you're just the cross i bear,

you will never love me,

and this i cant forgive,

and it will always bug me,

as long as i will live.

Lyrics from Emma Roberts(addie singer from unfabulous)-Mexican Wrestler......altho some parts of the lyrics is humourous, but still deep....especially if youve seen the episode for this one....damn~ i cried uncontrolablely! and now i still feel her pain......even if that was about early of last year already......And for some reason i keep getting people shooting me with the questions about love....honestly, ppl i dont know.....maybe the cause of no getting love in return had made me numb of making my mind if im actually in love or just infatuated....thats why i honestly answer you guys.....i simply dont know.....so yeah~ probrabbly till the time i get love in return, then maybe i could understand a little bit something about my feelings towards so called 'love'....

okay, enough about love! exam is coming up in about a week and few days, but still some lil evils keep popping up in my little heart to not study! sshheesshh~ eventho im really freaking scared for whats coming ahead....

And oh....guess what? i was totally emberassed in class just now....*sigh* long story, better heard then seen from computers.....ahahaha! then while waiting for my car just chatting about with the guys infront, there was a car infront of us.....with a guy tapping on the window.....i looked at the car and finally to found my long lost friend making an ugly face to me! ahhahaha! that was funneh dude....and now for some reason we just cant stop messaging each other about "pizza" and "duit raya"? hahahhaha! wierd~ ( i bet if your reading, you'll know! hahahhaha! crazeh dude~ muahahaha!)

well~ i have loads more things to share....but thier not that interesting unless u guys were there.....heheheh! =D so yeaahh~ that all folks~

Happy advance bday NADJ.....finally ur 15....heheh! =p

2006-09-27T05:39:00.000+14:00

how come things between you and me never got any better? its been some time and im still in my old world. of all the things ive been through, nothing you did touched my heart. instead you make me feel like im your doormat. i dont know what to do to make you understand. still it's hard for me to ignore you.why can't you just go and stay? why her? what's your reason you still treat her like she's someone you need to give your attention to? no, she, is, tired. of all these. to forget, to not. she's so.. confused.

2006-09-26T05:40:00.000+14:00

..I'm the girl sitting next to you.
I'm the one asking you to care.
I'm your best friend hoping you'll be there..

days been so dull. went to watch HEARTS today with fiz, mah and ziq. sm told me its boring it makes you cry, sm said its fantastic and sm said its really boring, its a waste of your time. decided to watch it for myself then, plus others wanted to too. okay seriously, i think its really boring. no offence to those who think its fab. but really. we didnt finish the movie :D so whoever paid for my tick, thanks. haha.

im shur ya'll been moaning abt school like me too right.
friends been nagging, but yeah, schools back :/ its a good thing tmoros tues tho, we missd a monday. haha sigh. 5 more hours to sahur, i better get to bed. 4 more days to 15. and 10 more days to our examination!

Selamat berpuasa.

2006-09-25T01:26:00.000+14:00

SELAMAT BERPUASA AND GET FAT SOON PEOPLE~ =D

hey....i watched it too that nigth~ hehehe! wow~ i wish we could have a life as interesting as that! hehe! tpi kan jalan pun payah-payah....*sigh* but if we were them(whoever in it....heh~)i would so like to be the greek one.....LENA.... =D cz have you seen her eyes....like wohh~ its like so bluee....lawa aahh....mcm c Jayla.....rambutnya lagi perfectly curled tu....like damnn~ i wish i was her...*getting dramaticly jelous* hehe! and wow...how i would love to live in greece...clear blue sky and sea, hot guys, complicated but cozy
place to live....i donno why but i just really loved to be her in that movie....heh~ but at the same time i like Tibby's hair....like hello~ its blue! =D and also Bridgett's legs and Carmen's confidence.....heh! =D well~ enough of my imaginations.....hehehe!

one and only.

2006-09-22T05:16:00.000+14:00

umi, i wants you to gets well soon okai :( i want puasa on sunday and i met auni today. khee. hi ni :D now ill just leave these photos telling what i did today.

the unfinishable cookie and my oh-too-bad-its-not-so-cold mango juice (:

jis. thanks for stealing my pants, zy. ahaha

the sisters.

i dont know, okay.

that girl who blocks people face and izzati :D

lobby :D

Now, do you care?

2006-09-22T04:44:00.000+14:00

Understand the lyrics to this song....and give me what i need...
To everyone, i apologize.....i didnt mean to come on that strong yesterday.....i was jus ticked off! It wasnt really all you guys fault(whoever tought it was)it just that my feeling about evryone and everything was just bottled up for too long....my heart just couldnt hold that much tought and feeling ya knoe(my heart is only as big as my fist!)....I was more likely pissed off at everyone and evrything.....I just felt like i was shook too much....You know the saying "dont shake the bottle too much or it'll just burst"? well~ i felt like i was shook too much....by everyone no matter if it was my family, my friends, my teachers, people in the TV, my self even, whoever, seemed to me everyone did in these couple of months! I didnt actually wanna show any side of dissapoinment anytime of yesterday nor soon(cause if you really noe me....you know i'll just let ALLAH do whats best), but for some reason this friend of mine read me so well that i was(nobody else did).....he confronted the people who crossed the last line of mine(i dono if u noe im talking about you, but thank you....cause you read me better than anyone else....im sori i just couldnt be there when you needed someone just like you...and that actually wanst the 1st time you read me...)well yeah~ he read me that day in just a matter of seconds.....n everything came out...and for some reason for me to be and do what i usually do when im read was to just deny it....but for some reason i couldnt yesterday.....my heart was just shook too much for these past few months and it burst.....but luckily it didnt burst that much or you guys would've seen something you wouldnt like....okay~ goin back to why i didnt stop myself.....i even tought of the same question....well~ i tot maybe it was because.....i never actually had a moment like this....cz my friends and family usually show that their breaking down(on the other hand i usally suck it all in, cz there was always no one there).....and im always the one who has to be the helping hand....but i dont get that in return(maybe cause, then i didnt have someone who read me well!).....or maybe i also tot that i wanted to see how far could i get to be *emo* as they call it! or maybe even since i dont usually get attention anywhere, i just really liked the attention or maybe also becausei felt like i just couldnt stand it.....honestly, i dont know.....mayb it was all the reason together! And i would really wanna tell you guys what were all the things that made me fcuked up all these months.....but thats just be too long to write(i could make a 100000000000 word esaay for it).....cz i did think over of all the things that happened....but i was in the shower crying alone(well~ i couldnt really tell apart my tears and the shower water!) so yeaahh.....i dont have enough tissues nor any shoulders actually to cry on! so yeaahh~ i wanna say im truly sorry....altho some of you just didnt get the hint that it involved them too.....for some bloody reason...and i would like to thank you to the guy who read me.....thank you so much cz this wasnt the 1st time you read me....and i really appriciate it.....I really wanna express all my feelings all the reason in fucked up in this blog....but that'll just bring tears(and i dont have a big box of tissue wif me now) not only to myself but maybe even the ones reading....and i would want anyone to get offened cz in my opinion everyone is involved....so yeaahh....if you really wanna noe all the troubles....You'll care~atleast some of you....i hope....

2006-09-21T02:44:00.000+14:00

this picture reminds me of old times. been missing those times lately, but right now we have to study real hard. school was total bshit i'd say. we did nothing for the first 3 periods. tmoros a holiday, WEE :D and and that's it.

p.s. 298, im sorry.

Just a reason to go back in time.

2006-09-20T00:08:00.000+14:00

Go back in time with me.....

Shanks and bigfoot- Sweet like chocolate.
Vertical horizon- Everything you want.
Garbage- Stupid girl.
East 17 feat Gabriel- If you ever.
Run DMC vs. Jason Nevins - It's like that.
White town- Your woman.
Blur- Song 2.
Courtney love- Mono.

Take a step back in time and remember some of the greatest hits.

Take me high~

2006-09-19T23:21:00.000+14:00

Last bunch of pictures that you just got to see.

Seeing red.
The 12 of August afterparty.
Did some important business....rite? hehe! =D
Sweet like chocolate!
Say it with me.....So hawwtt~
Inner child released.
It was just that retarted moment!
Who said dreesing up like this isint cool? hhmm?
Javen took this one.
The lovely model(in pink) with her fan. =D

Hope you guys liked the pictures....thats the last bunch that u just had to share....not all were taken by me but their great......so you just gotta love them.... =D

--I wanna thank evryone infront of the camera and also people behind the cameras. Love ya'll....... =*

2006-09-19T21:06:00.000+14:00

abg kash im sorry i didnt send you to the airport. umi please get well :) and yes thats it. hahaha oh welcome back syu!azy. whatever stays in the boat, stays in the boat. okay bye :D

[n39]

The pictures will keep on coming.

2006-09-19T03:56:00.000+14:00

I told you i got loads of pictures.

Tattoo......(oow~ its that Micheal dude back there! hehe!)
Our ligthsabers. Muahahahaha!
Sakai-ed around.
Love that view.
No need to comment.
Dennis and his tounge thingy! heh~
Im telling you....he can read minds.
How ironic!
My beloved friend.....AMANDA! =D hehehe!
This is why we LOVE school.

Never get enough.

2006-09-19T01:35:00.000+14:00

-More pictures-

---> The new Jolibee mascot.
--->Modelling.....
----> The ghost of Calvin.
---->Wish you were here.
---->Flying without wings.
---->Pose babes~
--->Models having a break!
-----> The lil sisters....
----> SUPERMAN!
----> Strike a pose. =D

Finally~

2006-09-19T00:35:00.001+14:00

School is FUN~ =D

------>Ajai doesnt even need to pose. Work it~
-------->Recess....
---------->Lina on the catwalk! waseh~ hehe!
---------> A, B...........now i know my A B C, wont you please sing with me!
----------->Our school model......so hawtt~
--------> He still wont admit, he is VAIN!
-------> The latest hot model look....the 'bangang look'....hehehe!

Finally~im blogging again....it been how many months? 2? 3? 4? was it? well~ one thing for sure i just have to share with you guys the pictures i took in these past few months....ENJOY~ =D

2006-09-18T05:41:00.000+14:00

we're really good at posing you have to admit.

WOA. . .

entah.

nadjmadanazeemah.

the first day of the week is never exciting. especially whats gona happen in school. hahaha okay yes, i havent finish my art. ive started sm sketches bt if you look at it over and over again, it js doesnt make sense so might js as well stay up til i really have got smthin. or ill be dead by tmoro. we standrewsians are gona have to start studying by now. well soon. exams in 3 weeks time and its right exactly one week after my birthday, god damn it. 3oth sept will be on saturday. wiggle. a puasa birthday it is then. ill be 15 by 3oth. gifts are welcomed, oh yes. WIGGLE EYEBROWS. haha im kidding. i better continue my work now. cheers people. selamat malam.

2006-09-17T07:27:00.002+14:00

man. whataday. im tired bt im not sleepy so i decided to post smthin up. school was aright, its saturday wachu expect. haha and ah great, mandays coming, fudge it. the surprise hafiz damit planned went pretty well, i can say. for now, happy belated birthday to both abhar and once again, afif :D i hope you guys like the presents. wiggle.

prettiest gift ive ever seen, for real.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAW!.. no?

hafiz, fifah's shoe? HAHA kidding me.

tiny gay bui. afif johari rahman.

mus, pis, viv, jik, bakh.

oh wee!

happy birthday guys. fif, abhar.

HAHAHA.

check it out, amah&dj. HAHA.

hahaha hi fif.

2006-09-16T06:09:00.000+14:00

happy 16th birthday dearest tiny gay boi. aka afif abdul rahman. HAHA. rawr!

tmoros a saturday, so i dont really mind going to school cs. cs its js saturday and we have assembly. haha.so we'll most prolly miss first and second period which will tk up the economic periods (: and in the afternoon, will thinka smthin or smwhere to go. got sm bbq invitations too tmoro night. its gona be cool, havent had bbqs for quite sm time now. ive been listening to funny songs, bt im liking it thanks to te tiny gay boi. haha ill come back soon. my ass is numb, i wanna head to bed. haha cheers.

2006-09-15T06:55:00.000+14:00

so ma, ka and dadeh left just now. ws pretty upsetting tho. i cried, but a little. really, a little. now i have to take care of adek. it'll be a wee bit hard, but i can do this. ill be the boss of the house now. wiggle eyebrows. haha okay so things are all tangled up again, but then thers nothing for me to do other than js keep it to myself. only one would listen. no, nai? hugs. like what anai says ''wait. and snap every moment that passes by'' thank you, i appriciate you :)

i miss you dude.

2006-09-14T04:57:00.000+14:00

i was restless in school today. totally restless id give my friends pretty faces when they talk to me :D sorry guys. anyways. im not going to school tomorrow. WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! gona accompany kaka do sm stuff before she leaves tmoro night :( just here. olden days.

2006-09-12T04:12:00.000+14:00

listen to maddening shroud by frou frou, is goose :D

msn's really killing me right now. thers this error shit going on. its been since 4 this afternoon, and its still not working. so whatever, ill just watch tv after this :D oh dont ask me how school was. we've got a new teacher for pui tho. and shes real soft. haha. anyways jaeemah thanks so much for the.. you know what (: theyre real pretty, swear. thanks a million.

2006-09-11T05:09:00.000+14:00

i am crushed. i swear, schools tmoro. and first would be? art. lavly! art first and second period. like what fiz said, what a day to start a week eh. so anyways. its still early and i have to head to bed soon cs if i dont, i won't be able to wake up as early as 6AM. GAH, vhatavits :(

ate at nasi kandar for lunch today. mm, its fine if you ask me. we famileh went to yayasan after that to accompany kaka get her stuff before she leaves on thursday. i think im gona miss her :p yeah anyways. fah, zart and nadj went to mini stadium then, to support the friends play fooseball. it was gunners against st.andrews. no comment, gunners won. congrats. haha kay goosbye now. wish me luck for school :P

2006-09-10T05:44:00.000+14:00

just sthin for everyone :D

snakes are not funny. snakes are not funny. SNAKES ARE NOT FUNNY. no fiz. haha.
anyways. i heard sm stories abt sm people who doesnt like this certain smwn. haha okay it doesn't matter. what matters is that, schools in a day. sucks bad! last but not least, happy birthday mandy moore-d cousin. [ka nurul] =D

CHEERS.

309: theres a reason :)

2006-09-10T04:22:00.000+14:00

get well, my friend.

309: screw you little fella.

2006-09-02T06:51:00.000+14:00

its 1233 in the morning and i still cant my eyes shut so i could head to bed. the ones im trying to avoid chatting to are off now, im so glad. i mean it, im glad. who bothers talking to them anyway :)

so what now. its the first day of holiday and i couldnt even think of what to do the whole afternoon. musik and friends, thats abt it, really. ah great. monday. start of school. lafly isnt it! our schools having extra classes or wait. preferably having less hols-days. we're having a four days from morning til 12 pm school since our exams gona be on early october. why so early vkos our schools closing real soon after that. why? :) and again because, this is what i heard, our schools gona be.. renovated. i dont know how good its gona look like, bt aaaaaaaaaaaaaaah holidays pretty long! had lasagna for dinner, mmhmmm! fratini's. fah and ziq came with me. as usual, we hung out and had a great laugh.

let's swap places so you'll know me deeper.
CHEERs

309: cruise with me baby.

2006-08-31T18:25:00.000+14:00

syu, im abso sorry i didnt post anything up on your birthday. anyways.i hope you had a great one and now know why you werent allowed for the sleepover ;p

nothing much been happening lately. things are aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaall the same. holidays startin. weehaa! but now that i thought of it. what am i gona do o.o haha check out the layout, its a little weird isnt it. tired of it :D so yeah. have you ever had a conversation abt what you think of your body with someone who knows how you feel. hahahaha try it, its fun for real. it shall keep you wide awake. and OH! try thinking of what the person who has the opposite size of your body think abt theirs too. muwaha. cheers to you llittle chickens.

waiting for NADJ to go home (:

HAHAHAHHAHAHA umi's friend.

guess whos left eye this is! GUESS!

pretty, no?

yeap benny came (:

jee and jul.

the syu.

happy birthday old hag (:

minz and jul.

309: i think im M you.

2006-08-28T02:59:00.000+14:00

i am in no mood to study. been busy and ol fudgt up and yeah, whatever. thers been bshts going on. this test is killing me. i dont wanna end up giving my friends ugly faces when i get my paper back. vai now~ B)

victure of the day. feel the love man. feel the love. haha

after a function.

especially for hafiz. for being such a GOOD good GOOD friend. haha snort

39: anyqztwamhaouiiwahaha.

2006-08-25T06:44:00.000+14:00

the wind was blowing great outside just now. and right now, its raining. HEAVILY with thunders. which actually freaks me out bad. i have my headphones on and im trying my best to 'pretend' like thers no rain, no thunder, no lightning. js got back from the amerrrrrrrrrrgency after whatsoever happend to grandpa once i reached his place. an ambulance parked near the gate. fortunately hes doing good now. been a pretty good day actually. had a greaaaaaaaaat laugh going out with them (: the american navys is what i can call HAAAA HOT. HAHAHA trust me. they were.. were just :) and school. was fun. the examination wasnt as hard as i imagined it would be. im not saying i did a good job, bcs my painting and shading totally ruined the whole thing. the skull i had to draw. i'd say its the worst among all four. there were bones and weird shapes of.. yknow. whatever :D haha.

oh ray's bracelet ws so frikin rugged, im getting one. haha. fahs zip up was the hottest. and ziqs new way of walking.. swear. was the lamest. couldnt get any lamer than pronouncing dixie chicks as dixie cheeks. or nacho libre as nacho libri. ORsong as shong. the best would be mixing your own tune and turning one song into your own-made remix. HAHAHAHA okay im sorry. im just in the mood of telling myself inside jokes.

been tryna find a layout since this one i have on s getting pretty old. aviv suggested a ducky layout would be nice. unfortuantely i cant find one. especially not one with an instrument in the middle :P we'll be leaving to surrey for uni arent we viv. HAHA.

39: have you really loved a woman, says bryan.

2006-08-22T23:01:00.000+14:00

i feel you man.

haha.
OH kak timah where the mother father dichu go. HAHHA okay lame.

just few more days til saturday. im gona really have to work hard now. get a day off tmoro and study from the break of dawn, til maghribi. haha as if. whats been funny lately is that.. when my shits are going to its end, most of my friends' are all just abt to start. how do i explain this. mines ending, theirs is starting. oh what have i got to do to help!
its all about the love life, thats one thing fer sure. studies comes next. anen comes the family. i wish i could help you guys.

whatever it is, im sure itll end. correct. no? aaaaaaaah. i cant wait til holidays. 10 days they say, 10 days it is. ramadhans waiting. so is me birthday. sadly thers no way i can celebrate it in any kind of party. maybe js for sungkai? haha. i dnaw how i can stand puasa this year, been craving for everything. every second of every day ;p
and yes! happy birthday inieeeeeeeeeeeeeeee :) AND ina.

wiggle eyebrows.

something for crazy people inlaf.

39: say abcd til Z with me.

2006-08-21T01:53:00.000+14:00

well. it didnt turn out as amazing as i expected it would be. i had fun nonetheless. like what i said, its having your friends around when its the best. guess i wouldnt be going out til test's over. which will be next week, sadly. i js cant wait to get it over with.

got up early so could pick zy and m up. anen went to empire fer brusin's family day, which usually will tan me up like crazy. but not this time. met up with papi to watch a movie, but didnt feel like it sooner. so left for somewhere else with syu aaaaaaaaaand. AHA! we ate buttermilk chicken and it was FA BU LOS :D AND THEN. we met up with.. the aids council people :) and went for the arcade half an hour before we had to leave. with the gayfriends around.

mentos loser who said, ''i dont wana be.. a loner''.everything's gonna be fine, cs whoever that fker was is gona be way dead :) HEHEHE.

zy had too much butterflies.

we were that bored okay!
told ya.

poser for life. pkkh!

hi friend. haha.

errr zy. its the other way round.

mmm.. picnic!

azy.. ?

39: seperti dulu

2006-08-18T21:14:00.000+14:00

i have no bloody idea where syu went. im like having the blog all to meself. antam. and syu, yes, i agree. the world is turning upside down. everythings messt up. everyones having their own fkt up lives. everyone asks for help but i cant even solve mine myself. haha yeah well.

mister, i miss you. remember when you were eleven you lost your buunnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnny.

39: no way.

2006-08-16T23:36:00.000+14:00

nadj
azy
syu

art's stinkin. everything's messt up. i dnaw where syu went. napolean dynamite's on :)
cheers to you.

39: says whats.

2006-08-14T21:55:00.000+14:00

Photo of the night. It's called.. relaxing.

....
party was great, fullstop. test is coming and its driving me crayjeh. especially art and econs. art's gona be dang hard. perspective! yes, perspective and econ makes me yawn anen give her that look she doesnt like (: anyway.. lifes never been better. haha snort.

watch it. its crazy.

HAHA

fah.

and in the morning :)

HAHAHAHHAHAHAHA.

p/s i miss you.

when we shoot.

2006-08-10T21:11:00.000+14:00

its true. its THAT sad. we're not as bad as you think we are. we dont do things everyone does these days. we might always want to go out, but thats bcs home kills us. its just boredom that we want to get rid of. and i assure you, you can trust us when we say we'll be out with our friends. drinking and doing unpleasant things like smoking isnt just us. its never a temptation to us. we can even sound like we're really bad bcs we're not so oh so great in our studies. but at least we know whats right for us. we're clean. we're not so bad. we just wanna enjoy ourselves that we need our friends to surround us. we won't lie to you if you actually think we never tell the truth becausewe usually do. and it gets to our nerve that you act like you dont trust us bcs we always try to convince you, but we usually fail to and whats worse is that we can never find a way to prove it to you. its having our friends around we enjoy and we tend to wanna do it over and over again. all we really do is joke around and that's when its the best. we enjoy ourselves. even if others might want to do those ''things'', we know we wont. we'll stay away. once again, its not us. its just the fact that we like having fun in a good way. we might hurt your feelings by our face expressions when we'reupset but thats because something bothers us big time. and when it comes to relationships, we really like having jokers close to us cause thats just how our lives goes. we laugh like there's no tomorrow. that's one big point you should know, then maybe we won't look, sound, act so bad as you actually think we are. and yknow, there are times when we even feel sorry for ourselves because we just can't be good enough for you. but.. guess thas the way how lifes suppose to be. like what they say.. its cruel, its unfair, period.

sincerely,
girls who are close with the guys.

39: its called.. RANDOM :)

2006-08-08T19:44:00.000+14:00

life smells. i want B.

its gonna fall. its gonna fall. OH NO.
HAHAHA.

adam and one of his cats.

pepsi cola one two three. haha.

happy birthday sistaaaaaaaaaaaah.

yor craaaaaaaaaaysie.

39: tangalonglong

2006-08-07T00:45:00.000+14:00

thers more pictures. but right now i js cant upload cs its craysie. ya mers (:

.. this weeks saturday is AWESOME! (: went to bandar with the girlfriends and boyfriends. haha.
and they are way. oh yes, crayjeh. which made the whole thing purfecto. its kalupis's birthday too, HAPPY BIRTHDAY chio! :)

never in my entire life have i seen so banyak people. crowded man. everyone looked so sticky cs ocors we were all sweating like mthfrikin baie man.
especially moozy :P it was just.. daaanggggg it. i mean its not always i go and watch these kindda stuff and well.
theyre not THAT bad. you js need yur friends around. like mers, her nonstop nacho libre jokes. like ziq, his crayjeh scientist video.
like pepsi, that jaeem dude ;p it was great. everyone was there! azy, nad, elle. except syu ocors. AND! i saw more firework. it was superb.
at first, we went so excited watching it shoot in different directions until it seemed like it wouldnt stop, we started taking pictures and soon met si kalupis.
met up with the dudes cs they were around and we had a great laugh, trust me.

whas boring was that we dint geta eat our dinner bfr we left. which made me keep complaining abt how hungry i was. gahha. moozy dude lanja-ed us drinks. thankyos :)
anen tha birthday bui. or as what mi prefers, spendet boi. HAHAHA. was SUPPOSE TO lanja us eat but we decided to leave fer sugarto and spicey. ahahahaha.
cheers niggo amigos.

ps. thanks a million you guys. i mean it. to the ma and da too :D

abg shaf look alike dude.

spongebob wannavee.

met up with the girlfriends ;p

mers's shot.

twin.

lets do this. the bebys pose. HAHAHA.

we were just.. hi.

long gun. HAHAHA.

39: SAY CHEESE.

2006-08-03T03:16:00.000+14:00

cah pacah.

i still keep my glow stick yknow. its so pretty, i havent had it since i was small. since i was in primary that ive forgotten how to light it up at first. HAHA. the show was a-aright, even if most of my friends opinions all the same: boring. the only performances that made me go WOAH, WUHUU AND LOOK AT THE DRUMS was from indonesia, philippines and brunei. like what most people think too. AND pakistano (: whats best was having my friends around. i mean, i couldve been dead bored without the dudes&dudettes. right mi? emito wouldntve been inspired if pistachio didnt leave his camera for us to take care of. nyeahaa. we had jolibees cheese burger fer dinner too! how cooszat :D

school sucks. i cant wait til holidays. which will be.. what the niggo. september? when. how many days. less than 3 weeks? haha. our test s coming soon, but ive got million and tonsa plans which i want to attend oh so badly.
oh yes. the birthday pictures. ill be uploading it soon aright.
SUUU OH WHERE DICHU GO!

ps. i want the firework. some more. and more. and more. and more. more. more. more. more. more.
okay, you get it.

superb!

guess who interrupted. pistachio man.

photographer in the making man. photographer in the making.

ahahaha odd one out.

.. and there goes my gay friends.

GAAAAHAA.

with candidman and pepsi.

39: even if.

2006-07-30T19:13:00.000+14:00

its lunch time. but im not hungry. not at all. well maybe a little. but im too lazy to get my ass off this bed. sitting and starving at the same time, i dont mind that much. it depends on my mood actually. and im not having a good one at the moment, cs everythings fkt up again. whatever. who wants to talk abt it. right (:

happy belated muts. guess my saturday wsnt so boring as it usually is. yesterdays party went pretty well and yes, i enjoyd my night laughing my head off. the guys nacholibres joke couldnt get any funnier man. the birthday nutterheads decided to make a waterballoon fight at first, which i didnt think would go so well when everyone seemed like they werent in the mood to get wet. but that ws at first. guess i ws wrong. they enjoyed being wet. spcially pushing eachother into the pool. yeh everyone got in, even if some couldnt (:
-isnt suppose to. moozy pulled me into the pool. he ws too strong, so i couldnt do nehtin. haha.

aaaaaaand surprisingly i have only one photo of me and me cousin, fifers. none with umi, emah or even gmah. SIGH. wanted to js walk home since i was soaking wet and totally shivering. dint wana get the car wet, but sooner than i can imagine, me ma msgd. told me to go home which was around 1130. so there goes.

thats bcs your her. her is better.
goodbye love.

39: we scare bks we care.

2006-07-28T07:40:00.000+14:00

so schools been totally messt up. im trying to not dislike the teachers even when they tend to give lectures abt how they love us. HAHAHA. doesnt that make you laugh? yknos. thyre your second parents, its your second home. AHAHAHA. okay maybe not.

teachers' ruins my mood in school. and my friends js make me go crazy. well some. not all. the guys are fudging annoying.they go blaming other people abt their own problem. SIGH. if i could live like a like a like the laguna beach people. or maybe yknos freedom, money, everything nice (: then it wouldnt be necessary for me to go to school. haha. 2hours ago was gmahs birthday. happy belated (: and tmoros emersons birthday. or as what i prefer; samut. happy advanced.

everywns been telling n asking me abt that tatoo show. whether id be watching or not cs the school gives out extra ticket for anyone who wants to join.that saturday night show. passt cs ill be going with me famileh on the ferst. heard they said its fab and abso brill. I CANT WAIT. it better be worth it B)any of you guin on the ferst?

aright CHEERs dudes.

Talentine pictures~

2006-07-28T02:52:00.000+14:00

----Nu-retro's 2nd prize voucher----

----the lovely ladies of Nu-Retro---

----a couple of people messing with my camera... =p hehehe! ----

----Another couple of people messing with my camera! hahaha! =p ----

----manda n i caugth up in a moment! hehehe! =D ----

----when Vainess n Craziness is combined...hehe! ----

----Shaun....the only person who offered me a hug backstage! how sad~ hehehe! =p ----

----It migth have sucked....but hey~ you should try practicing it in one week! =p ----

-----the 2nd prize performance----

-----the 4th prize performance( how nervous was i, huh? hehe! )-----

This years talentine was tiring, hectic and undescribeable~ hehehe! well~ hopefully it'll be better next year....hehehe! n hopefully i wouldnt be so stupid again to join all three.....gila~ such a fuss~ hehehhe! oh yea n make sure to bring ur earplugs next year~ heheheh! =D

39: .. like cannonball into the water.

2006-07-25T20:09:00.000+14:00

thanks to klupis for taking beautiful photos :)
www.peezski.multiply.com
HE's GOOD. check it out.

jiks. my gay friend.

click five dude.

2006-07-25T04:58:00.000+14:00

continuation :D

hot photo of ziq.. termenung.

wasnt anywhere near (:

.. zaimah.

aunidette, jeeyan.

the twins.

elles vips.

with the other guys behind.

39: i dont wanna talk abt it.

2006-07-24T03:12:00.000+14:00

hallu bloggerette :)

its 8.51 and the fireworks still on. tmoros one of the days where in every period, i go crazy bcs the teachers make me go crazy. haha (: mondays a ruiner, a spoiler, a mthfker. hahah. so great, another four more days til i get to get up late again. sigh. 10 of us went to watch movie together. hafiz, abhar, wafi, jj, azeem, zaeem, afif AAAAAAND abdul? yes, abdul :D
nachos libre's not a bad movie. its pretty disgusting, but its A-OK. the guys had a really good time laughing. fifers n i were the odd ones out and the guys were such nutterheads. the last place we went to was the arcade cs if im not mistaken, afif wanted to go badly. gahgah. i shouldnt be going out anymore, ass tests in few weeks time. but..

its called boredom. i blog when im bored, ok? no? thanks za. i love you til the rainbows end.